What now God?

Sometimes when I pray;

The answer seems so far away.

I think I'm being put on hold;

I wonder if it's something being done to scold.

God doesn't function like that I know;

There must be somewhere in my life I need to grow.

Maybe the wish I have doesn't lead me in the right direction;

I might be missing an unknown connection.

This world can be so cold and confusing;

How long must I keep musing?

Why can't God be more direct?

I don't want to make a choice I will regret.

He's let me go in a way that felt wrong before;

Just to show me a better door.

Some days I feel like He has given me the key;

Other's it seems like I can barely see.

My wisdom sometimes fades in and out;

My head gets full of doubt.

Fear and stress creep around;

It's like I'm getting pulled underground.

Lord please hear my prayers and lead me through;

I feel so small and I don't know what to do.

I know you hear;

and that I shouldn't fear.

Please touch my heart;

Give me a fresh start.

AMEN